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Ive never physically mentally spiritually nor emotionally missed anyone like ive missed my Sunshine. We drifted n chit chat every blue moon, the void hits harder every fuckin time in the most random of situations. I was skating one day, went to do a double kickflip and thought of her. I fell horribly on my hip and dazed n pain and confusion i asked myself “what made me think of you?” ….i just looked up in the sky and showed the agony iwas in towards the Sun…that was about the closest way of communication i could come up with. Ifelt pain in the memory.
I woke up months prior missing something. Literally saging im missing something. I hadnt talied to her and what it would seem a year. Struggled with the thoughts of the forgotten i embraced it and became humble of the times we kicked it. Im cleaning out my car bumpin tunes and get the nastyest paper cut frm what i thought was a old rhyme i had folded up. As i unfold it i see names number and a drop of blood- im bleeding. I go to throw it away when i realize my blood spilt righ by her name. Its been a year though she wouldve got a new number by now….eh fuck it why not. Shot in the dark and be prepared to give your last name, social security number and bio because im sure youve been if not forgotten then deleted…..i hit her up. She hit me back. We miss each other but she was only here for a wale concert that nigh. Ihad three hrs….but iwas nowhere near nor did i want to be. Just this feeling of commin out nowhere i didnt like that……
Month had pass now fast foward to the moments im writing this. 15 minutes ago i awoke from a dream….she was in it. It was peaceful. I had no guns in my hands….no drugs near my dick nor pocket….no police chasein me no dogs barkin…aint whoopin nobodys ass nor hittin licks im just…..peaceful. she sat on this rock inna sundress….by the waterfall. It had to be atleast 76 degrees with a cool breeze and her skin was so bright diamonds were priceless at this time i asure you….her eyes being the first cryptic pyramids built by the hands my ancestors passed me…..her body as curvy as a serpent trailing for it young to protect…..hair as silky as it wanna be mimmicking harpstrings at a dusky orange eve…..the sun was out but iswore if i had ever laid with her and woke up id confuse the two…….skies were blue and the water reflected it with koi fish in it…calm streams to my ankles while im buring this blunt she had rolled on the ride here isuppose……she was everything within a mere 2 minutes of reality and 30 minutes of the dream world…..iwalked closer and she got up and walked towards me…..
I reached out for her she reached towards me,
I called for her and she called for me and when i had her in my arms and stated “ill go thru self immolation just holdin my sunshine” i lighty woke up as this dream faded……
So i write this in awe in question and seeking one answer for her…Sunshine….it doesnt have to be the same i rather not know if it is…do you think about me ? -AG to @ordinarydreamchaser
